June.
Shelby's Tea Party is only days away. I thought of this event standing in the shower months and months ago. It came to me as I stood there letting the water fall on me, bathing me with warmth..comfort. Quiet time.
Tea time, tea party. Shelby and I played it almost every day. She would gather her babies around us, sometimes dollies, other times beanies or bears, we would have the little tea set out, sugar cubes..
"Cheers! Salud!" we would say clinking our cups together.
Of all the pictures I do have of Shelby, I have none playing tea party. How strange. I cried when I first realized this, cried and cried.
My love for Shelby is unchanged, unwavering..constant and steady.
My missing her is also.
There are moments still that I think, "This isn't real..didn't happen." I feel suddenly struck with grief in the realization that it is and it did.
Shelby's Tea Party is June 11th-14th. We are having ours June 11th,
the day she was diagnosed.
..bringing joy to such a sorrowful day. A day that changed the world as I know it. The day that changed my perspective about life and living, about death on earth and living on the other side.
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Dear Kim,
You don't have any pictures because your whole heart and soul were present for Shelby as you two played tea together.
You were in her world.
I am so sorry that you don't have photos of that memory, but know it is because you were there for her to play with and be with and imagine with.
She had every ounce of YOU for these moments together.
Hope all things wonderful are falling into place for your tea party.
Much love, Jess
I'll never be able to think of a "tea party" ever again, without thinking of Shelby! Your beautiful, precious little Shelby sitting amongst her dollies and teddy bears, with you, her beloved mom, lost in the joy and wonder of play! Cheers and Salud, Sweet Shelby! Oh, how you've stolen my heart! THE LOVE YOU ARE GOES ON IN THE WORLD, dear little one! Love to you, Kim...
Kathy
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